Swiss Army Romance

i dont wanna hear that im too young

Mon, 06 Aug 2007 06:33:58 GMT

wow so i havent posted in a while

rascal flatts concert was awesome!!

Kappa Kidney Camp: AMAZING!!
went to the wrong camp. way to go Britta
learned how to play monopoly- a 10 year olds way
dressed up like a "raisin"
met a kid from southview that was going to the camp (small world)
3 hour drive home. not so much fun

& New York. I cant even explain the sheer awesomeness
stayed with Taylor in NJ
Yankee Stadium is unbelievable
toook a ton of pics
bought an awesome shirt, and a hoodie. finally :]
spent an afternoon/night in Times Square
DIDNT GET LOST AT ALL on the subways. im soo proud
our plane had a 2 hour delay. then we had a 2 hour wait on the taxi line
we got home way late to say the least

then last night was CP3
I ran into a ton of people I knew
hung out with Steven mostly
drank a little, not too much

its my last week at home. and im soo excited to be going back
spending a lot of time with friends. lunch dates with friends all week
going shopping with my grandma on wednesday :]
i need to pack. blah.
only 5 more days of work. Thank God!

oh and my dad taught me and my mom how to throw a football properly. all was well until I went to catch one and I did a really bad job and jammed my finger and now its all swollen and red and bruised and ugly looking. blah. that is why girls dont play football

im strong on the surface, not all the way through

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 05:47:32 GMT

so i really wanna post in this thing, but nothing exciting is going on just yet. here are my countdowns though

6 days til rascal flatts
9 days til i go see britta, then kappa kidney camp with her the next day
17 days until New York and my Yankees game :)
31 days until I go back to school

so those are the countdowns for my exciting things this summer.
other than that nothing too cool

working a lot. you know.
not too much else

guys suck

i dont wanna know that you know, you should've had me

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 06:14:44 GMT

so heres the deal:
1. i hate lorain
2. im ready to go back to OWU
3. i miss my Kappa sisters
4.I'm tired of fake friends and this town full of bull shit people

okay so now that that's off my chest I can move on
though i dont relaly have much else to say

i really hate my job
i have to work ALLL weekend
never mind the fact that its international weekend & i dont get to go

I wanna see Ratatouille

i finished my OWU scrapbook
i only have 6 pages of my KKG one done :\ oops

went swimming the other day with Jen, Dena, Johnathan & Sara
had an amazing time... great to relax

i think thats it.
wow this was short!

jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping

Wed, 30 May 2007 04:23:35 GMT

fuck that I wanna see some fists pumping
risk something, take back whats yours
say something that you know they might attack you for
cus im sick of being treated like i have before
like im stupid standing for what im standing for
(Linkin Park -"Hands Held High")

so im sitting in my room amongst piles of crap that I should either be doing or putting away, and instead I decide to post on here since its been a while.
some random updates on my life:
+ i passed stats though barely (got a D)
- got an A, B, C & D for my grades this semester... NOT HAPPY
- because of the aforementioned occurances, I may or may not be returning to OWU in the fall

+ settled on my car accident (didnt get as much as I'd hoped)
- got into a fender bender on my way home from work on sunday night
^^ it never ends (my fault this time)
- my phone completely crashed on me on friday
+ I got a NEW phone... Verizon enV and I'm obsessed

+ watched the first 1/2 of the Cavs game at Church Street with Steven and Sara before they kicked us out
^ I HATE not being 21
+ watched the second half at home with my dad... good times
+ went shopping today, got lots of stuff & a new bathing suit (and a fleur-de-lis tank top)
- spent wayyyy too much money

- worked like 40 some hours this week. aka im working way too much
+ I get paid tomorrow :) oh helll yeah!!
+ went to chipotle today with Chris, Cory Meadows, and Dena (awesome times)

- Tomorrow, or should i say today, in any case May 30th is the one year of my bubbas passing
^ gosh i miss my dog!
- I miss my friends from OWU like crazy!

- friends at home suck!! I mean, i love the ones who stayed close.
but seriously, the rest of you, hate to be rude, but go fuck yourself. soooo not worth my time
- guys confuse me, but im glad the drama is gone. i never understand them
+/- SVHS prom is this weekend and I wish I was going, or could at least go take pictures of my friends but no, of course I have to work!! no surprise there!
+ new LP cd is fucking amazing. im in love with mike shinoda
+ I'm reading sooooo much for leisure now that I'm home... LOVE IT!!!
seriously, I <3 the library

okay thats enough for now.... maybe more later
i hate stress, work and everything else that is making my life hell
i thought summer was supposed to be a break... nope, never!

<3333 adl

beautiful liar

Mon, 21 May 2007 05:03:21 GMT

So much that I want & need to say

i just dont feel like typing

maybe later.....................

dq something different

Mon, 14 May 2007 04:31:13 GMT

I'm home from OWU
& this is my life for the summer

gotta love it right?

too many hours
but i make decent money
cant complain too much

you dont know me, you dont even care

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 17:45:35 GMT

I still don't have a reason,
and you dont have the time.
And it really makes me wonder,
if I ever gave a fuck about you.
Give me something to believe in
cus I dont believe in you anymore
i wonder if it even makes a difference to try

life is life.... and it sucks
im ready to be back at home
gahhhhhh

my mom will kill me for my grades this semester
even though i've been working my ass off

Guys suck... damn near all of them
ex-boyfriend = gahhhhhhh
guy at home = confusing... STILL
I dont even know what to do right now

kappa = going well...
I am the Panhellenic Public Relations Chair already
(Panhel is the inter-greek organization)
Formal was Friday... loved it
I was on Social Committee so I had to set up and clean up and all that
so im glad its over...

^^my lovely lovely girls
Britta, Emily, Melanie
Me and Tory

^me and my "date" Griffin
gosh I love this kid!!
dont worry, he put on a tie and jacket before we left

^^ my family :)
My Big Kim, Me, My Great-Grand Big Julie (senior *sad face*), My Grand Big Lauren

^me and sydney... pregaming it up
dont ask about the coffee cup

Tonight is our last chapter of the year
it makes me sad cus its our seniors last chapter :(

This weekend is my last weekend as a freshman
best believe im gonna make it amazing :)
hopefully I'll remember some of it

Only 10 days left here at OWU...
3 more days of classes
finals are done next tuesday
coming home next thursday, May 10th... I CANNOT WAIT

I think thats enough for now...

wild as the wind: is love

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 07:15:44 GMT

Wow so i dont even know where to begin
Life = HELL

My iPod was stolen/lost!! Not really sure which yet

I found out I have a relatively low D in my Stats class
the only way to get a C is to get at least a 60 on both my midterm and final, that should be as easy as it sounds... but its not
I have an italian exam tomorrow too
oh and a history test on monday
lets not forget the project and paper due next friday

Ben Folds this weekend, looking forward to that cus Bryan is coming
havent seen him forever, we're gonna drink together :) i'm excited

Formal is coming up and not 100% sure I even have a date
guys are complicated
though me and that one guy talk on the phone every day.
I miss him a lot :(

My mom's surgery went well
she's sore, but doing okay

And on those last two notes...
I WANNA GO HOME!!
I am sooo fed up with this place and everything that comes with it
I am just soo ready to be at home with the people I love

Breaking point is sooo much closer than normal
im stressed and i just wanna cry but i cant
maybe i should take tonight to just fnd myself again
go shopping and get food by myself or something...
sounds like a plan to me

God please give me the strength to get through the next few weeks in one piece & with my sanity!

You Have Stolen My Heart :-\

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 00:37:29 GMT

So I dont even know where to begin....

LEIMUN was this weekend, and let me say, soooo many emotions going through my head and I'm not even on the team anymore.
First of all, they won and im sooo impressed. They seriously made me super proud. Especially my seniors. I can't even begin to explain how proud I am.... a 3rd fucking win at Kent, thats amazing!! We will seriously have the first ever Doc Hammond 1st place trophy next year if we keep this up.
Second emotion: irritation! Staff members are amazing, but I mean come on... how hard is it to moderate your alcohol intake. You have 3 nights with these people, dont tell me you cant spend one of those nights sober.
Third, confusion (i'll get more into that later)
Fourth emotion: excitement because i got to hang out with Johnathan, Jared and Greg for the whole weekend cus they were on staff with me
Fifth- happy because people told me that my little inspirational speeches this year actually helped them.

Overall, it was an amazing few days. The people I spent it with were amazing for the most part. Family is amazing, whether they're real family or the family you make yourself. I am sooo glad I went and didnt keep my lazy ass at school, even though now I am super behind in school

SO... moving on to school, I'm failing my math class, im 99% sure. this is gonna suck at the end of the year.
Me and Bigs are gonna make a trip to Bowling Green sometime in the next few weeks to go to their greek store so we can get some pretty sweet and amazing hoodies and the such.

Alright... so there's this guy.... he confuses the hell out of me. I spent a lot of time with him this weekend, well as much as I could since he was a delegate and I was on staff and not really allowed to fraternize. Oh well.. so anyways, we danced together a lot, and now i dont know where things are going. He says we're going to talk when I go home for this weekend, but we'll see! Hopefully all goes well, we actually do talk, and I end up in a good mood afterwards.

My mom is having surgery this week... and that reallly makes me sad/nervous since she's gonna be off of work for 6 weeks, and I'm basically going home this weekend to help my dad do things around the house.

And GRRR for the fucking train that is passing the school right now that is making it very difficult for me to focus on my music and writing.

i think thats it... probably not... oh well

i dont think you understand, I WONT TAKE YOUR SHIT ANY MORE!

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 05:43:35 GMT

I dont know... i just dont know

life is confusing....
and so is everything else!

friends:
losing a lot of them... and im apathetic
bonding much more with some... loves it
i dont even know anymore, who are my real friends... i'm figuring it out, but its hard as hell

guys= one of the most trying things in my life right now
guy @ home... mad feelings for him, but not sure we can make it work
guy @ school... sooo sweet, totally interested... who knows
GAHHH

I have WAYYYYYY to much homework and not enough time to complete it
wednesday i leave for LEIMUN and i dont have enough research

on the upside:
-kappa initiation this weekend :) love my girls
-got a 92% on my geography exam
-my sister sent me a card in the mail, basically just saying that her and my niece are thinking of my and sent me some pictures and a late valentine, nevertheless... so cute... miss them soooo much

i'm out...
call me, save me, love me, whatever you wanna do!

and dena, for you: LAME!

Say it if it’s worth savin' me

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 04:00:45 GMT

Hold on, baby, you're losing it
The water's high, you're jumping into it
And letting go... and no one knows
You cry, but you don't tell anyone
That you might not be the golden one
And you're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone

I guess it's true that love was all you wanted
Cause you're giving it away like it's extra change
Hoping it will end up in his pocket
But he leaves you out like a penny in the rain
Oh, cause it's not his price to pay
Not his price to pay...

wow so yeah...

best friends, ex-friends til the end, better off as lovers, not the other way around

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 09:14:14 GMT

I realize I have been neglecting this thing...
but for good reason I think.
The only time I ever right in here is when I'm bitching about something
and lets be honest, none of you care really...
So why waste up internet space posting about things that no one cares about

I'll sum the latest events up with + and - signs:

- I had a Stats midterm on friday that I'm 90% positive I failed.... *insert prayer for a curve here*
- I have a History midterm monday, take home Geography midterm due wednesday (havent started), and an Italian test with the workbook due, also on Wednesday...
+/- Kappa Karaoke was wednesday night... + because it went awesomely well and I love doing events with the sisters, but - because the people who told me they'd most likely be there, didnt show... and that hurts
+ Kappa & DG game night was the 9th... AWESOME time
+ went home for Kwanita's wedding reception the 10th... yayyy for late night car rides
+/- Alpha Sig bid night: me and Britta bought Devon (+), had to pay $30 (-)
++++ JUBILEE was 2 weekends ago and I absolutely loved it... I cant even express how much fun I had
+ I've been going to the gym more frequently... and doing better with the not eating shitty foods thing (it's amazing, I mean, the food portion sizes on the packaging... are SOO RIGHT, you can really eat just that amount and be content... haha)
+ I started going to a Bible Study and I absolutely love it
- I dont rely on my friends for anything anymore
- not that I dont want to, but I feel as though I cant... I mean... no one keeps their word anymore
+ me, emily, annie and maria got into welch next year... moving down one room to 310
- im slowly realizing that I dont really have a chance with the guy i like... damn being 2 hours away...
+ I'm going to the Columbus Blue Jackets v. Dallas Stars hockey game with my mom on friday :) yayyy

I don't know what you did
But you got me to fall for you
And I know that its stupid
But you know that I try

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 01:46:59 GMT

Questions from Andrew:

01. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
02. I respond by asking you five questions of a very intimate and creepily personal nature. Or not so creepy/personal. ;-)
03. You WILL update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
04. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
05. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

1. What are your honest opinions about college? I think that all too often its overrated, I mean i love the atmosphere for the most part, but the high school drama shit doesn't change whether you expected it to or not.

2. Do you miss anything about high school? I miss being with my friend everyday. I miss the annoying bell that always rang in the middle of the teachers spiel that cut them off and sent us all running for the door before she/he could assign homework.

3. What's something you dislike about yourself? I dislike how rude I can be to people. I swear I dont have a conscience, and i honestly dont care too much. but it still sucks. cus i open my mouth to fast and say things i dont mean

4. What is something you like about yourself? I love how confident I am. I am completely comfortable with myself and dont need anyone telling me what to do, or who I am.

5. If you could move anywhere in the world, where would it be and why? I would probably move to Washington DC in an attempts to get into the CIA, I wanna be a lawyer but what I really wanna do, is go into the CIA.

I have scaled these city walls, only to be with you.. but i still havent found what im looking for

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 07:29:07 GMT

so i sit here thinking to myself...
and there is so much going on in my life that I cannot sort out the emotions
i'm used to feeling an overwhelming amount of each emotions, im not used to multiple

*My Kappa big key sis is Kim :) and Im soo happy because she's super sweet and totally spoiled me this week for big-little week
*I was soo happy and felt so good because my whole Kappa family got together, INCLUDING my Great-Great-Grandbig who already graduated and is doing her Grad work at OSU. she drove up just to see me and the family and have margarita night :)
*I need to talk to someone from home sooo much, cus i have more feelings for him than I was willing to admit over christmas break, and now I regret that terribly and miss him more than i could have imagined. I cant even begin to explain the friendship we built over the last few years.
*I am sooo frustrated with my classes right now. I think that even though i'm doing pretty ok, i'll never be able to get the grades i want
*I am excited yet nervous that i will be seeing my mom on tuesday. everytime we talk, she makes me feel like im not good enough even though im trying soo hard to be everything i know she wants me to be. I feel like she compares me to my sisters even though i know that i'm probably better off than they, because they both have kids. dont get me wrong, i love my niece and nephew more than the entire world, Aubry & Daniel = my happiness
*I feel like my friends expect more of me than i can give. friends from home wanting advice on things that i cant help. i'm 100 miles away, what do you want me to do? as much as it pains me to say this, i thing my friends here take advantage of me. my stuff=my stuff. i dont share well, so dont ask. and dont ask me for a ride somewhere if you dont plan on giving me gas money or asking me well in advance. just because you dont have a car doesnt mean i become your taxi service. unless i offer a ride, find rides elsewhere... or heres an idea: WALK! im not made of money and my car doesnt appreciate being taken advantage of, and neither do i

andrea is fed up with people,
but oddly content at the same time

you give up your soul until you break down

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 20:59:13 GMT

I am sooo ready to go home

the first two weeks of school weren't too bad but im ready to see my niece and nephew, go to a wedding, eat ice cream from MY dq, have a good cry, drink with dena... and be done with OWU for a while.
I am at breaking point with just about everything and everyone and i dont wanna snap on anyone. the 10th cant come soon enough

history= easy
italian= better than last semester
math= not too bad
geography= boring but i think it will be more difficult than we expected
relationship= non-existent (but im finally okay, i think)
friendships= fair (though can be good some of the time)
sorority= Kappa Kappa Gamma (all smiles is all i have to say)
big sister in KKG= find out tonight (again, all smiles)
Columbus Blue Jackets game= mostly amazing

ready to go home:
niece and nephew :)
homecooked food :)
kwanita's wedding :)
dq will be reopened :)
see my parents, whom i miss :)
and soooo much more

andrea is fed up with the OWU scene

go ahead and tell ur friends im obsessive and crazy, I'LL TELL MINE YOU'RE GAY

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 17:40:45 GMT

BACK AT OWU... and DAMN DO I LOVE IT

i'm so glad to be back you have no idea
angela came in last night too
we went over to chi phi to hang out
typical college kids, drinking the first day back i know

went and got my books... all used, but nice
only $309 this time
however they fucked up my card, too hard to explain on here
long story short, they almost charged me twice, then said i didnt have enough $$ on my card, and now i have to wait until tomorrow to get my books... they're holding them... but still... boo on the lame bookstore

but let me just say, I LOVE my RA JOSH
he's awesome, and super personable
he actually hangs out with his residents
woo hoo he's awesome

andrea is tired
and irritated with the bookstore

calling all cars: we've got another victim

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 04:45:07 GMT

oh my goodness, the last few days have been amazing
new years eve was mostly uneventful, but me and dena always ring it in together
^ we're lame but cool with that

Emily came to visit wednesday evening.. it was an awesome time, 11 pm super k visit haha, then we went to see Happy Feet on thursday. even better the 2nd time around
I got my car back thursday, a day early... woo hoo
Andrew and Tyler came thrusday evening and brought ben, we ate dinner, watched step up and then friday we headed over to Emily's casa
played apples to apples, boxers or briefs, candyland and hung out. good times.... making pizza real late and staying up til 6 AM is always fun
Saturday the boys left, we went to dinner with Katie, and hung out. watched step up again, made mac n cheese, another round of candyland, you know...

Today i headed home. it was sad cus i miss my OWU lovers alreay :(
went tanning today too. yayy for starting to get darker
I totally broke a nail at emily's.... again its much more painful than you think

Freedom Writers = AMAZING (loves it)

Read another book. loves it: Silence of the Lambs
and im currently reading Lullaby by Chuck Palanhiuk (thanks andrew)
I have 2 waiting for me at the library too that I have to read before I go back

andrea has a headache
but cant stop reading

surrender, but dont give yourself away

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 07:15:07 GMT

so 2006 wasn't too bad, I cant complain too muc. I did some things i would rather not have, but i also am very proud. I graduated high school, graduated 8th in my class actually. I lost my dog, got into a car accident the day before graduation, went to insane graduation parties, left for school, met amazing new people, had a wonderful boyriend that i dont regret a day of, broke up with someone i truly cared for, made it through my first semester of college. the entire crew broke up, we're all in different schools and points in our lives. oh well... u know how all that goes...

Goals for 2007 (I dont like the word resolution)

1. get back into shape
I gained 21 pounds already and i wanna lose it, or turn it into muscle.

2. make a conscious effort to be more open to people
i am way too withdrawn when it comes to myself, i need to learn to open up to people

3. not get attached to people
i've learned that by doing that, it hurts worse when u lose them.

4. resolve things with drew (more short term)
and either have the relationship evolve, or be content with where we are

5.read more books for my own liesure
im reading a lot and i enjoy it

6. find myself in my faith again
this has always been difficult for me, i say im religious but i dont really try
so my goal is to go to church more

7. get a 4.0 for my second semester of college to bring my gpa up
i did extremely well for myself and it being my first semester of college, but i need to focus more

8. visit annie in utah
cus the three dirty pirate hookers gotta visit all the houses. haha

9. go to more concerts
me and dena need to get back in the concert scene, its been too long

10. play sports... soccer specifically
i've played for 14 years... this not playing at all is killing me

oh how wonderful because for the first year, i made goals that i can actually achieve
andrea is happy for herself

well i love you so much... but...

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 03:44:58 GMT

So I finished 3rd degree last night after soaking in the tub.
oh how i love taking baths

and i now have nothing to read again.
I wish the library would hurry with the requests i have on hold

and i saw the good shepherd tonight.
good movie, for the most part
however it was 3 hours, and the plot line was lost
partially because of its length... oh well

and I went to the Rock Hall today
for those of u not from the cleveland area,
thats the rock & roll hall of fame
oh how i love that place!!

and i desperately need to talk to a certain someone
boo for him/her going on vacation

Hike Up Your Skirt A Little More

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 03:48:10 GMT

so as much as i love being home
i need to go back to school, for a few reasons:
-i spend too much money here (that i dont have)
-i need to do something more productive w. my time other than sleep
-while being at home i managed to break my iPod
-i miss my friends

So yeah just thought everyone should know I broke my iPod, I miss my friends, and I'm reading a totally awesome book called "3rd Degree" by James Patterson. I read Eragon already, and loved it, but im waiting on my copy of Eldest to come in at the library

woot woot for scrapbooking and reading
i love it

All the colors mix together.... TO GREY

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 21:06:11 GMT

its been a long while since i posted, bear with me though it shouldnt be too bad

Finals went... well they went as finals do. I got a B in English, on the final paper, and the class. B in Global Issues overall, C on the final, but an A+ on the paper. B overall in Religion but an A on the final. So things went well, just not well enough to offset my rough start.

I'm soooo soooo soooo glad to be home, its been absolutely amazing.
I cant even remember all that i've done

the first night back I had my work christmas dinner then went and played Kings at my friend Devin's house
wednesday, i dont even know... ummmm yeah idk
thursday was the UN dinner at Jackalopes... good times
friday was the UN christmas party at Mr. White's. damn it felt good to be alumni

saturday i went to get my new cell phone (my christmas present) but im not due for an upgrade until May so i would have had to pay full retail price which would have been $270 for the phone i wanted, so me and my mom decided against it.
So needless to say, i didnt have a christmas present from my mom

sunday was christmas eve, got together with all my sisters. it was awesome. got to actually enjoy the holiday, as opposed to thanksgiving. me and my mom went to the 11 pm candelight service at church. it was beautiful. Monday morning, my dad got called into work cus there was a huge water mane break, then when he was coming to join the family, he got called back in cus someone ran into a fire hydrant. grrr So i didnt get to see my dad on christmas until 4. oh well. I got lots of pj's from people. that was apparantly the theme this year haha

so since i didnt have any present from my mom besides pj's and some lotions, i went shopping today with dena. It was awesome. I got new boots, the Brand New cd, scrapbook box, a super adorable shirt, a purse, and the iPod radio i wanted was sold out, so I got a rain check. I'd say it was a pretty awesome christmas for not getting much the day of. oh well. im grateful for all of it. especially my dad finally getting off work to spend christmas with us.

andrea is tired and may write more later
dont count on it
at least for a few days

this aint a scene, its a god damn arms race

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 10:17:17 GMT

I know that i'm no music critic, but to me, that line means that we arent making an argument or anything of the such, we are each trying to one up each other (hence arms race) and therefore no one ever really wins cus we're both too stubborn to let down our guards

Okay... so heres the deal (with + and - again):

+only 2 more classes left
-one italian and one english (my 2 worst)
-I had to pull an all nighter monday night with angela
-almost fell asleep in my english final because of it
+turned in my Global Issues Media Watch and I'm pretty confident
     -whenever im confident, i do bad... grrr
-I am currently awake at 5:06 in the morning with Emily and Tyler who are both trying to finish their paper
     +/- my paper was done like 2 hours ago
+went to the Global Outreach show, it was good except it lasted 3 looooong hours
+my mommy and daddy sent me a package today!!
     +i got chocolate, candy, cookies, a wonderful religions bracelet, and socks... i love socks
-two finals on saturday 8:30 AM and 1:30 PM
-one final on monday at 1:30 PM
+going home on tuesday
     -I'm gonna miss my lovers here
     -I hate the other people here sooo much I'm ready to go home
-The whole Drew situation is still complicated/confusing/no good
+going to the rock-and-roll hall of fame with Jodie and Matt on the 28th
+made my nail appt for the thursday i get back... thank god
+work christmas dinner on tuesday... yayyyyy
+tyler has a radio show and they had karaoke night
     +me and emily and tyler did "showstopper" on air... yeah we're that cool
     +GOOD TIMES
-im suuuuper stressed out about my finals
     -everything else isnt helping
+because i was so frustrated with the situation, i started working out again
     +its actually going surprisingly well AND i've been keeping up with it
- (x's like 832 million) I just realized today, that this year will be the first christmas since I was like 6, that I'll be having without my puppy. I still miss her... and it was like may 30th
+I get to restart the scrapbooking deal when I get home for christmas break
     +lots of new pics and stuff (steph: got any ideas??)

and i think thats it, since few people even read this thing anyway
andrea is still lost, but trying to get over it

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 04:23:07 GMT

who am i kidding

who am i lying to

i wish that last entry

was true

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 05:57:11 GMT

strike that last entry

im fine

thank you josh for making me realize im still the same woman i was before drew.
Im strong... independent... and best of all... myself.
i cant ask for anything more

shit happens...
lifes goes on

i'll move on and be ok
and people:

thats a PROMISE

i'll be the only broken hearted loser you'll ever need

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 19:13:36 GMT

I dont understand guys

I dont understand how things can be going so well, then end so fast

I dont understand how you can be perfectly happy one minute, and completely heart broken the next

I dont understand how you can just let go of someone you "love" that quickly

I dont understand how you can lose that one person you love in an instant

I dont understand the whole losing people that quickly thing

I dont understand the heartache that you go through

and worst of all:
I dont understand how we could lose everything we had in one moment. And how everything we had worked for could be lost in a moments time. And I dont understand how he doesnt feel the same anymore, or what tore us apart. I just really want things to be back to normal again. Because I love him, i really do. And i dont understand how we could lose that all in one night.

so drew if you're reading this:
I still love you and I want us to be back to normal
I dont know what happened,
but I'll do anything to make this right again
and have you back here next to me

Andrea is so lost